The former Big Brother star gave birth to their daughter Noa earlier this month, but she has had a tumultuous time since she was discharged from the hospital.
The 40-year-old star wrote on Instagram: “After arriving 11 days early, it was …
“1 day since I last cried.
“2 days since her first bath.
“3 days since we went to A&E with her.
“4 days since our first dog walk with Noa.
“5 days since we learned how to use a sling.
“6 days since the puppies came home.
“7 days since we came home from the hospital. (sic) ”
Kate has been home for a week and admitted that her early experiences with motherhood were a “mixture of magical, traumatic, painful, exhausting, and informative.”
She also described the past week as “the most overwhelming experience of [her] Life”.
Her contribution continued, “While Noa is not perfect, I don’t know if I’m coming or going. One minute I’ll be fine, the next someone asks how I’m doing and I burst into tears. As I type this and ask myself this exact question – how are YOU, it made me cry. I’ve cried so much since she was born.
“I’ve been crying because I’m tired, not sure what I’m doing or if any of us are doing it right, because of terrible, dark thoughts about losing my daughter as our meditation playlist appeared to remind me when Noa was in intensive care. (sic) ”
Noa was recently admitted to the emergency room after having difficulty breathing and although she is fine now, Kate admitted that her early experiences with motherhood were more dramatic than she had thought.
She wrote, “I see other young mothers here looking glamorous like the first two weeks were a breeze and I really wish I could say it, but it’s the hardest thing I’ve ever come across. Hopefully it will be easier. I didn’t make a lot of stories because I didn’t have the time or energy. Send positive vibes to all new moms who feel the same way. Know that you are not alone and it is good to shout it out. X (sic) ”